2006

you know how they say whatever you are doing at midnight into the new year is how you'll spend your new year? well i spent my new year surrounded by 7 kids, and getting less than 4 hours of sleep total.

hmm... that looks promising! :)

unfortunately i've missed my last 2 temps though :/ on saturday i woke up with a VERY full bladder and took care of that before i thought to temp, so i discarded that one. then this morning i didnt get 3 full hours of consecutive sleep, and then i slept in so that the time was almost 3 hours past when i usually temp... so i discarded that one as well.

since in my luteal phase though, ive been told that it wont really matter. theres no chance at all that im pregnant this time (not a snowballs chance, ifyouknowwhatimean)... so my LP will go till i start AF which should be tue/wed/thurs... im usually a tuesday starter, but FF is saying thursday... so we'll see. since im obviously not on the pill anymore, i dont think the whole "tuesday starter" thing counts.

i was on a MB the other day and someone else asked "what advice do you wish you'd been given when you started TTC?" and so naturally i clicked and it was the typical "expect it to take a year" and "relax" stuff... which i expected. but someone also mentioned that they wished someone had told them to chill with the actual baby planning stuff - buying baby clothes and picking out names and buying maternity clothes... all before the BFP. they went into detail about how it makes the BFNs just that much harder to handle, and all of the emotional bits as well. at first i was like "well if it makes us happier to start planning..." but ive been thinking about that post a lot in the last week and i agree.

now im just as guilty as anyone (i bought the "and then there was me" baby book already) and ive been trying to plan out the layout of my room to accomodate a crib and chaning table and everything... writing down name choices, things like that. and i havent even started TTC. *sigh* so ive decided to relax a bit. im getting WAY ahead of myself here. its fun to look at baby clothes and think "at this time next year... maybe..." but im going to really try to focus on the conception for now - let me get to that step before i start planning pediatrician visits LOL

i guess that's my new years resolution: relax on the baby planning stuff and focus on the TTC part. until i get a BFP - then all bets are off!!

anyway - i hope everyone is safe and doing well. this new year is going to be life changing, for sure. no matter WHERE i am at this time next year :)