26w3d - 95 days left!

*whew* this has been one roller coaster week! and its not even OVER yet! there's been drama at the sperm bank i used and a very good friend got caught up in it and just *sigh* i wont even go into it here, but she needs your good thoughts and prayers right now. and i hope the bank goes back to what we all used to know and love.

im also trying to move and since i usually work 12p-8p i figured id have every morning this week to go pack stuff up - but ive been called into work every day so far and havent been able to pack. so i told them yesterday that i couldnt come in early today or tomorrow - so i guess now i need to go pack. for reals. ARGH. i hate packing.

and now my gripe for the day/week/month. and this is probably due to my hormones and everything, but i HATE it when people say "oh, just wait!" when i complain about something. and its not like im a complainer... but this week ive been very very tired (i usually wake up around 7, eat breakfast and take a nap before i head in to work and this week of course, no nap) and when people have asked how im doing and i say "im tired, but feeling okay" they ALL say "ooooh just wait."

do they really think i dont know i'll be tired when the baby gets here? REALLY?? the difference will be that i wont have sleepless nights followed by an 8 hour day at work... at least not at first. :)

or i'll say "my hips hurt" and they say "oooooh just wait!" JESUS!!!!! i know that labor/delivery will hurt. i KNOW that. everyone knows that. AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! that doesnt change the fact that TODAY my hips feel like they are on fire. and heartburn.... its the same thing. I KNOW ITS GOING TO GET WORSE!!!! but today, it still sucks. reminding me that everything in my life is going to get worse IS NOT the way to make me feel better.

honestly - do people think im going to go "oh wow, you're right. i shouldnt be complaining about how my hips and esophagus are on fire today and that im running on less than 5 hours of sleep, because DAMN! soon it'll all be worse!"

i want to tell these people "lets deprive you of sleep and set you on fire, and see how happy YOU are when people give you that condecending smile and tell you its all going to get worse"

and no - im not mad or anything... honest! its just frustrating. and its only coming from the people at work. people who either have never had kids or have had kids, but 30+ years ago. ARGH!!!! when the lady who is pregnant with her 2nd child in 2 years and is only 4 weeks behind me says "oh sweetie, thats only going to get worse... try a hot water bottle on your hips before you go to bed" - thats fine. :) she at least knows where im coming from.

wow... look at me complain! LOL oh well... thats my major gripe it seems. i hate that. hate hate hate it. :)

and now... now im going to go pack. which i also hate, though not as much.